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06 January 2009 @ 03:20 pm
ive always wanted someone to ask me:

- how big around is your ass?
- whats the biggest word you know?
- where did you get your screen name?

=D ask meee!

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: shes got style - nevershoutnever!
05 January 2009 @ 04:12 pm
school started back up again today. and it was fun (:
in the morning i watched diamond and randy make out, and i was attacked with hugs. haha.
then at lunch carlo was choking on his food, and couldnt breath for a while. it was funny.
(what? he was laughing the whole time, so shut up. im not a heartless bitch. xD)
anyway... then in sixth period randy said he liked my hair and kept playing with it. he told me it was like ivory and *IDR* mixed. and bronze in some places. so im like 'thank you...??' haha.

so yeah... the average day.


p.s. i found my headphones (: CHUSS. ♥
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: i am ghost - the dead girl epilogue part one
03 January 2009 @ 11:33 am
help me find them peopleeee. ):
xkem, D{=
Current Mood: sadsad
29 December 2008 @ 05:45 pm
i cannot stress enough about how much i hate the stupid stereotypical labels that this fucked up society has come to believe. im here to straighten out the stupid SLs.

emo (scene): stereotypically meant to be a sad, whiney, angst filled teen that slits their wrists and writes shitty poetry while having hair over their face and wearing black.
real definition: a genre of music originated from hardcore punk  and later adopted pop punk influences when it became mainstream in the united states.

prep: stereotypically meant to be an outgoing, stuck up, (sometimes called a whore) teen, who only shops at hollister, aeropostal, and other stores of that nature, whom are at the top of the 'food chain.'
real definition: an abbreviation of prepared or attended preparatory or private school.

gangster: stereotypically meant to be a black guy dressed in over sized clothes with the tags still on, who can't use correct grammar, who would most likely smoke weed or do another drug.
real definition: a criminal who is a member of a crime organization, such as a gang.

goth: stereotypically meant to be a santan-loving teen dressed in chains and black who hate everyone, and want to kill everyone.
real definition: were east germanic tribes who, in the 3rd and 4th centuries, harried the roman empire and later adopted arian christianity.

skater: stereotypically meant to be a junkie with long, straggily hair who does nothing but skateboard all day, and, 'in the old days,' was dumb.
real definition: one who skates.

so there. before you call someone a music genre, a school, a criminal, a germanic tribe, or just someone who skates, just stop and think. everyone is a fucking person. live with it.

Current Mood: irritatedirritated
Current Music: none :O
29 December 2008 @ 04:35 pm
yesterday, i was a mess. it was me and tylers 4 month anniversary, and we couldnt hang out, D;
i wanted to cry. ive been really emotional lately, i might start my period soon. :P
the song 'gloomy sunday' is perfect for my depression yesterday. its hungarian. and the original version i like is currently unavailable to me. so for now, i listen to the sarah mcglachlan cover. the lyrics arent long. but here:

original interpretted lyrics:

It is autumn and the leaves are falling
All love has died on earth
The wind is weeping with sorrowful tears
My heart will never hope for a new spring again
My tears and my sorrows are all in vain
People are heartless, greedy and wicked...

Love has died!

The world has come to its end, hope has ceased to have a meaning
Cities are being wiped out, shrapnel is making music
Meadows are coloured red with human blood
There are dead people on the streets everywhere
I will say another quiet prayer:
People are sinners, Lord, they make mistakes...

The world has ended!

sarah mcglachlan version:
Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you

Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday

Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there'll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I'm glad to go

Death is no dream,
For in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday

I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart

Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

which do you like? ♥

peace, xkem.
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: gloomy sunday - sarah mcglachlan
28 December 2008 @ 05:08 pm
so aparantly... sara is innocent! heh hehh...
this is what happened.
some random chick imed me using the random name sarah... which is not sara.
then i talked to sara and she didnt know anything about it. and shes the type of person who will tell you shit straight up.
so yeah..................
im not mad at her anymore (:

Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: oh sweet ransom - the chase
28 December 2008 @ 11:47 am
oh my fucking god, im going to cut off every finger, toe, arm, facial part, and skin layer on her!

sara rizzo is such an ignorant bitch when it comes to other peoples relationships. this is what happened last night at twelve in the morning. i was talking to darren when some random chick ims me, so i ask her who she is, and she wouldnt tell me but she told me she got my screen name from sara. so i ask, sara rizzo? of course. aparantly sara wants me to break up with my boyfriend. how dare she!
she doesnt know a damn thing about our relationship! and she shouldnt! if she has such a strong fucking opinion about it, then she should talk to me herself, not send some lacky. mystery girl said that she had said that i shouldnt get 'comfortable' with guys like that. now what the fuck does she mean by THAT? does she spy on me and my boyfriend when were alone? if she does thats pretty damn psychotic.
and trust me, i should know; i live around psychotic people, and i myself am psychotic.
anyway, i went on telling the chick that if sara really cared about me, she would actually talk to me about this shit, and not send some person to tell me. OR EVEN TALK TO ME IN GENERAL.; she doesnt even say bye when we have a three second conversation on aim. o yeah, sara cares about me so damn much.
why do ignorant people try to fucking help in a situation that they know nothing about, through a stranger to that person 'in need of help' and act like they care.?? idfk. i dont fucking know anything anymore.

my life was peaceful with little drama while it lasted; now its back,

p.s. perfect song for this situation.
Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: lost in the midst of chaos - with broken wings
27 December 2008 @ 07:35 pm
a is for amazing; you always feel amazing around them.
b is for buckle; your knees start to buckle whenever youre nervous around them.
c is for cant; you cant see anyone else when they walk up to you.
d is for dead; you would be dead without them.
e is for everything; you want to do everything with them. 
f is for fun; you cant not have fun with them.
g is for goosebumps; whenever you touch, you get goosebumps all over.
h is for holding; you always want to hold them.
i is for insane; you would go insane without them.
j is for jokes; the jokes will never end around them.
k is for kisses; you never want to see them kiss anyone else; only you.
m is for missing; you think about them so much you didnt notice 'l' was missing.
n is for nobody; nobody can make you happier than them.
o is for open; its so easy to be open with them.
p is for playful; youre so playful with them.
q is for questions; there are no need for questions.
r is for roses; not even a thousand roses could say 'i love you.'
s is for smile; just the thought of them makes you smile.
t is for tears; no matter how many tears are shed, happiness will always return.
u is for understanding; they are so understanding with everything you do.
v is for vulnerable; your heart is so vunerable its a perfect target for breaking; you dont care.
w is for wishes; you wished so many times for a person like them; no more wishes.
x is for excompanians;
none of your excompanians will ever matter anymore.
y is for youthful; even if youre both 80, the love with still be youthful.
z is for zaney; no matter how zaney they get, youll still love them.


Current Mood: lovedloved
Current Music: the reckneck cake bakers voice :O
26 December 2008 @ 12:50 pm
without you - hinder ♥
this song is amazing. its so true.
i hope my relationship with my boyfriend never comes to this song though.
at first when i read the title, i was thinking, awh, without you? sounds lovely dovey in a cute way.
but no... its a letting go song. =/
although im a little sad what the message of the song is, its still amazing. <3
favorite lyric: when i watched you walk away i never thought id say, im fine, without you. 

with me - sum 41 ♥
this song describes me and my boyfriend perfectly.
it talks about how the guy messes up sometimes, but he wont give up.
hes in love with the girl, and the girls in love with him.
its saying that without her, he would be nothing. he told me that before.
much love to this song. <3
favorite lyric: ill lay here forever, just to see you smile, cause its true, i am nothing without you.

cold - crossfade ♥
this song has the deepest meaning out of them all. sad, but true.
the guy was in love with a girl, but he couldnt help but be the cold person he is.
nothing could make him think he was forgiven, but he says sorry no matter what.
my boyfriend showed me this song and i fell in love with it.
thanks baby, (: <3
favorite lyric: you are the antidote that got me by, something strong, like a drug that got me high.

Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: with me - sum 41
24 December 2008 @ 10:58 am
fa la la la la, la la la la!
i love the holidays... except for the happiness of it. ( lmao, hap-peness! xD )
im such a perve.. haha.
i know what im getting for christmas from hot topic.
this is how i found out:
they left the email open.
lmao. yeah. they left the email open, and i got to see pictures of my stufff.
theyre not very smart...
i got bags, shirts, a belt, and some other stuff.
im happy (:

merry christmas!<3
Current Music: drown the city - skylit drive